Remembering Susan

Today is the one year anniversary of Susan's passing. Although I am at the Prophetic DAO conference, I will take the day easy. Give myself space to go deep. So much of the time I have to float on the surface, in order not to go into my feeling of loss.

It is strange, when I think of Susan, I mainly think of how beautiful she was with her alzheimers. Of course, she did not know that she had Alzheimer's. Somehow Alzheimer's let her true being shine through. Sometimes I wonder if Alzheimer's is a premature preparation to live in the five D dimension. Time,place, space people, even the subconscious, all get jumbled up.

I know it was hard for me. Most mornings, when I would wake up, I would say a little prayer that I would not get frustrated and angry. Yet it could have its humorous side. For instance, Susan went through a period in the evenings, when she thought her boyfriend was coming. She would force me out of the house and lock the door on me. Tell me to leave. I kept a window unlocked so that after twenty minutes or so I could sneak back in. By then she would have forgotten about her boyfriend and wondered where I had been. Even worried about my absence.

In her day, she was brilliant, a connector of people. She always said that she was given the task of bringing love into the belly of the beast, finance. She created over forty four networks, connected to finance women's liberation and other ecological and environmental projects.

I think that her real gift was in seeing people's higher potential. I met so many people who said that they met Susan, even as strangers, and after a twenty minute conversation, their life was changed. They were able to go on a new life path.

Around the time that Susan was born, 1941 quite a few other women leaders entered the world. They worked quietly in changing the consciousness of humanity. People like Barbara Mack Hubbard and Hazel Henderson. I can just imagine them now, up in heaven, comparing their journeys and gently guiding us as we continue our journeys here on earth.

I was so honored to be part of Susan's life. We met some twenty two ago. Our baby that we created together was Finca Sagrada in Ecuador.